Hmmm
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Yesterday Chris mentioned about my ex to alex.. and that course a quarrel session between me and alex.. which is not good... he told alex that my ex look good, decent looking etc.. i mean why he would wanna say all those stupid things to him? test him on what? haiz.. i quarrel and i cried.. he keep on saying that he wanna go for plastic surgery because he doesnt look good at all.. but i scream at him saying i love you because of you not because of anything, if you had decided on doing that then i think i better leave. if he had his plastic surgery, it would not be alex tan anymore! who will he be as????
He wanted to hug me, hold me but i push him away.. i dont want him to do all those things to me just to asking me to forgive him and accept his decision.. no way is my word! dear, i love you because of u not because of anything, if you decided to do that, i dont think i would wanna stay anymore.. its time to say bye bye.. i already had a nightmare in the past and i do not wish that the same nightmare would appear again! haiz...
Anni told me that cindy was pregnant and the guy does not want to be responsible for the thing that he had done.. stupid basket! irresponsible guy will get retribution next life.. those questions pop up inside my mind.. what if one day i noticed that i am pregnant.. what would i do? abort? or wait for 9 months? hmm maybe i should abort it.. well, i dont know, maybe i am stupid.. i know kids are always the innocent one but how bout the parents? do they have the income and everything the best for the kids? i got no idea.. i asked alex about this question before.. he just told me, married lor.. i will be responsible for it.. i am glad that he would say that but, our income not stable, no nothing at this age.. hmmm maybe i shouldnt have think that much also..
Tomorrow, is our 1 month anniversary.. planned to go chicago to have beef steak as our anniversary meal and after that, drop by maybe boat quay or clarke quay for a drink to celebrate the joyness.. i seriously hope that we can last till the end of the day.. i love him lots lots