<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/2773450370103536956?origin\x3dhttp://mylife-eelyn.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script> <iframe src="http://www.blogger.com/navbar.g? targetBlogID=3054107564476057249&blogName=url.blogspot.com&publishMode=PUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT&navbarType=BLACK&layoutType=CLASSI C&homepageUrl=http%3A%2F%2Furl.blogspot.com%2F&searchRoot=http%3A%2F%2Furl.blogspot.com%2Fsearch" height="30px" width="100%" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" scrolling="no" id="navbar-iframe" frameborder="0"></iframe> <div id="space-for-ie"></div>
命中注定我爱你
WELCOME


:D

Just a Daily Diary :D

Dead Drunk
Monday, March 30, 2009

I received sms from alex telling me he was dead drunk and suddenly thought of me.. it was about 4plus am.. after that i cant sleep until now.. kinda worry about him.. he's the one that asked me not to drink too much but he drank until like that, happy is one thing but must always take care of his own health mar.. haiz, worry about him and wondering how is he now..

Later i need to go back to my branch to clear my things and pass it to another staff.. finally tomorrow will be in the new branch already =) though a little bit scary but i hope it'll be a brand new place for me without ANY conflicts like what i had in my ex branch.. i think in this new branch, i'll be very quiet, and dont want to talk too much as i dont want people talk behind my back, enough is enough.. i dont want all the conflicts again and i prefer to work in peace!

Time flies, i just noticed that i going to turn 24 soon.. okie it's june but still 2 more months to go.. i work in bank, coming to 2 years already arghh everything just too fast for me.. in AMK Central Branch for the past 1year and 9 months already.. from zero till what i've got now, i thanks to all my senior who had helped me in the past.. i will remember those great times and bad times that we had in the branch.. i feel like crying as i am sad that i am leaving them, though they treat me not really good.. but people like sharon, serene, kas, jiayan,siow wei, ah fen, abbie, ivy, ah toh treats me well.. sabrina, sometimes like a monster to me but at least she's a great colleague of mine.. gonna miss all their laughters a lot.. as well as my PFCs, juliana, johnson, ah meow, phillip, gary, alvin, cherie, el jie etc..arghhh my tears drop =( i miss them!!!!

Yesterday went to bugis with chris and anni.. alex not free to accompany me as he got date with his friends lolx (that's the reason why he was so drunk) bought a watch for myself, anni and alex.. hope they'll like it.. i got no idea what to buy for them, just a small token of appreciation, hope they dont mind.. later will have steamboat dinner with chris,anni and alex =) cant wait for it.. i miss everyone very much!!!

writtern @7:32 PM

Happy girl =)
Sunday, March 29, 2009

Well, went to my baby crane's bday party located at boiler room =D it was a great fun night with crane, valerie, godsis chris, ben, chris, alex and anni.. totally a fun night outting with them.. the last time went boiler with crane, val, godsis and ben was erm last year boss' bday? i was damn high on that night and i drank a lot.. ben, dare to me to drink 5 glasses of chivas! cool one but once the kick is there i nearly fainted lor~

Another happy news to share is.. me is now officially attached with my guy =D it was great to have him, like my dream comes true.. was hoping to be with him since quite some times ago? i got no idea why out of sudden we would be together.. never giving a high hope on our relationship and thought we would just remain as a great friends.. hmm just happy to be with him lolx.. love him lots lots.. i promise will treat him well and be a good gf :)

Anni, please, dont say yourself as inconsiderate.. look, non of us is tired last night except me.. it is because you guys got enough of sleep on the night before.. i am a little bit tired and i know where is my limit.. i still can tahan de lar! lolx.. i love u also :P can u imagine, 2 nights in a row i sleep only 4 hours.. i nearly fainted.. when we were going back from my house to your house, i fell asleep on your kor's shoulder.. guess, i am really way too tired.. but i just love to hang out with u guys.. i love you all okie..muacks

writtern @10:22 PM

Nothing much..
Monday, March 23, 2009

Hmm went to Jiayan's 21st bday party last night at chervons in boon lay way.. still okie lar, just sit there and listen to ppl around singing lor, never got the chance for me to sing also :( but before that met alex for movie gran torino.. rating is about 7/10 lor.. ok lar not too bad..

But i can feel that alex is not the right him yesterday.. he seems so moody.. he told me that he got the thinking of ending his life.. but why? he said he is depressed with what he have now.. i mean hello come on lar! this is only the beginning of your life lor, you havent even step into the real cruel world lor and you already start depress.. me hoW? like that i already die very long time ago liaoz..I can understand why he like that but why out of sudden he has the mindset again? me, chris and anni never force him to do something that he dont like what.. must be he think too much of everything.. i cant do much except just ask him not to think too much.. only can ask him jiayou bahz.. i'm kinda worry about him, just wondering why suddenly he like that, treat me like a stranger..

Hmm me, chris and anni went to geylang for frog porridge.. yummy is all i can say! we ate 8 frog legs till we nearly vomitted lolx.. too much i think.. there was this stupid old malay uncle, looking at me from his van! and he walked to somewhere near our table and he looked at me and asking u want?? what the f***!! i am not chicken lor! do i look like chicken to you.. fuck you! hahhaah.. if you are rich or what i still can consider lor, but you're just a driving a van lor! fucking idiot day dreaming sia~
Anyway, this are the 2 pics of me and kas while we were at jiayan's bday
me and kas act cute lolx







me and kassie


writtern @8:39 AM

Yesterday..
Friday, March 20, 2009

Last night, another full of fun outting with chris and anni. alex join in awhile later after his bowling session.. finally this is my first time i saw chris using his beloved rod for prawning!! he look pro in it.. hmm not bad from clubbing boy to prawning uncle lolx..!! hope he wont read this or else he gonna kill me hahaha..

It was a busy day for me back in branch.. never got the chance to rest at all, down one counter end up with only 5 counters.. i am sick and yet i still have to go back work.. keep coughing while counting money.. i still remember one incident that a customer bank in $30,000 and his money was blooddyyyyy dirty and stinky and smelly.. when counting, the machine will produce super a lot of dust instead.. making my face damn dirty and my hands are sticky.. yucks!! er xin lor.

Anyway, because yesterday's outting was too last minute and end up me waiting at amk hub for my precious two of them until i nearly rot there... smsed with alex all along and he asked me not to rot until got spider web on me =.='' and i went to buy some earings.. too long i never spend on those wearings liao, so it's time to change!! finally i found the earings i like =) yeaaa.. met them and prawning all the way till 430am! and guess what! i guess i am too tired when alex arrived a short while later i fall asleep on his shoulder :S i never really get the chance to see how well chris has done but well, still consider as a good catch =) keep it up chris!!!

Here are some of the pics that chris took on wednesday clubbing night.. i look ugly =(



me and my dearest anni =)








i wonder why is this picture soooo red..








alex and me at powerhouse!
Hmm next time i must take pic with chris =D

writtern @11:50 PM

Happy =)
Thursday, March 19, 2009

Yesterday was the day that the four of us having fun again!! fun outting as usual =) went movie with alex at vivocity.. watched Departured.. it was a nice movie and it's oscar winning film.. nice and touching movie.. after movie i forced him to go power house with us (anni,chris and me) ehhehe.. end up he has no choice but to follow us to go bleah~ i win!!!! hahaha

A lot of things happened while we're watching movie, those are secrets heheh.. cannot be posted out muahhaha... anyway nothing much lar, it's just a very nice movie and it's really worth the money.. so people, gogoogoooo watch!

At powerhouse, it was really very crowded maybe it's due to ladies night, so all the ladies got to enter for free and free drinks =) me and anni ordered, taquilla and bayleys..nice but drank a lot and it'll make it sucks haha.. dance till we drop.. end up whole body aching the next day.. wore heels and my toes are numbs.. next time dance, cannot wear heels, must wear flats instead.. it was a nice dancing theme also and everyone is damn high!! i love it muahhaa..

Back to work, no mood as usual.. and today got super a lot of bulk cash withdrawal and deposits.. today total withdrawal $200k++. just one cash cheque worth $160k.. count till i hand drop aiyoo.. but luckily i can balance at the end of the day.. or else i gonna die already.. MAY GOD BLESS ME ALWAYS!

Basically nothing much happen to me today, just work, meet anni they all for dinner at sin ming and go back home.. meeting alex for workout on sat morning.. location? to be confirmed.. i wonder what will he be doing to me.. i scare this personal trainer.. scaryyy~

writtern @8:28 AM

Yummy sambal prawnssss
Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Went prawning again with the two of them, anni and chris.. they reached earlier then me.. i was about 1 hour late and when i reached there, they only got 4 prawns inside the net!! omg.. normally bout an hour the net will be half full of the prawns already! but not today lolx.. i think the prawns were oi oi-ing.. not the right time to catch during the day time.. hmm maybe either early morning or late evening..

Poor chris caught 2 pregnant fishies instead of the prawns.. ask you to catch prawns but u catch fishes =.='''.. makes me and anni laugh till mad lol.. cant imagine he did catch that poor little pregnant fish.. the boss said you're very lucky able to catch fish! luck getting better when the time is about 6plus.. but cuz i got fever and not feeling well, i fell asleep on the chair.. i wonder if i ever open up my mouth while i'm sleeping or not haha.. but the boss keep disturbing me.. end up i cant sleep well.. wanna sneeze but cant! shit...

They prepared sambal prawns and it was yummy! wow fresh prawns, fresh fried rice yummy yummy! everyone that pass by will say wow! looks nice.. well, it's really very nice!! hey next time cook again.. vivien is addicted!! i just love prawning with them! but i just sit there do nothing :P yummy yummy yummy..

Met my dearest jason at his work place.. he cut his hair hahaha.. he look cute! he told me that he will be going back to camp on every wednesday and saturday.. i asked if he will able to pass or not he told me ehmmm most likely nope hahahaa.. but i wish him best of luck! miss him so much lolx..

p/s: after i reached home, stomach pain and i run to toilet instead!! anni also the same, i wonder how is chris.. isit facing the same problem as us?

writtern @10:01 AM

Arghh
Monday, March 16, 2009

Well, yesterday night fever @ 37.9 degree.. today 36.8 degree.. is this still consider as high? cough and sore throat still there but slightly getting better.. i love prawning with them!!! later will be meeting chris and anni for prawning again.. though i am sick but i just miss to see them.. i think i am addicted to them already wahaha..


Might be meeting godsis-christine later for dinner with another 2 guy friends of her.. she's trying to match making me with them again =.=" she just so scare i got no bf at all.. hmm i still remember previously she still trying to match make me and her brother.. lucky i siam all the way till the end.. she even asked her mother to come down to my branch to take a look at me lor~ and her mother said 'ok ok ok ok..deal with this gal!! i love her!' omg~ but lucky i can run hahahaaaah.


Hope today will be a nice outting with them.. i just wanna get rid of myself from being lonely... now trying hard to recover from the heart pain.. everything remain the same as usual.. hoping alex will come back and join us soon =)

writtern @9:08 PM

Sick

Vivien is sick.. got fever, cough, headache, sore throat and slightly flu.. i got no idea why i'll become like this.. maybe not enough sleep for the past few days and some more yesterday went outside for quite some time.. maybe got cold from there.. i seriously got headache just now..

Anson called me just now asking me out but i told him that i am sick unable to go.. he was offering me to fetch me go see doctor.. asking isit i got bitten by mosquito.. but i dont think so lar..neva vomit, just got headache and fever thats it.. he even asked if want him to buy medication for me or not but hmm.. i said no need as well.. it's kinda caring but NO i wont like him..

I told myself to give alex some time to think thru.. i'll wait for him and wait if he got the ready feeling or not.. if yes we should try on if no.. too bad we're still good friends.. well, i like him thats the matter of fact.. love the feeling when he start to hold my hand =) miss him

Hope i can recover fast fast so that i can meet them for steamboat dinner on friday night.. =)

writtern @5:52 AM

=\
Sunday, March 15, 2009

My eyes swollen. it's actually because i cried last night and now making me very moody and down.. anni, chris and alex quarrel.. i feel bad and it's very bad.. i crying now again.. i miss those days when me, anni, chris and alex were having lots of fun together.. from the movie session to the clubbing session to the prawning session..and to the drinking session.. i miss all those memories...

Life is short but why cant people just appreaciate what is going on now.. you wont know what will happen in the next few minutes.. i might lost, i might die, i might fainted and just gone.. you wont know.. people just seems to take me for granted and never appreaciate what i've done for them.. they treat me like an idiot.. i noticed that i got plenty of things to settled.. one thing has done another thing arise, i feel lost and i got no idea how to solve it anymore. god please help me!! it's pouring rain outside, my mood just like the rain feel like crying.. maybe the "people" on top also feel the same with me?

On sat nite we went for our last movie at vivocity.. things were fine and me and alex were happy to be with each other.. he held my hands and we're just like a couple holding hands in the cinema watching movie..he was very close to me and i can feel his breathing next to my ear.. at first i thought things can work out between me and him but i was wrong.. i feel like i am an idiot about myself.. when i reached home, i smsed him saying i really like him but what he return his sms was.. i dont think i am really ready for any relationship, thats why i dont dare to show a very obvious sign towards you.. my heart got a broken sign but still ok, can manage.. but why in the first place you want to hold my hand! so last night i decided to meet anni and chris for dinner we discuss about this issue again..

Chris suggested that i should let him know that if we never try we wont know what will be the outcome.. why not we just give ourselves some probation period of time and try out? if things can work out just continue on if cannot and we can still be friends. but alex rejected this opinion.. he told me that he dont wan both of us to get hurt.. and this is not a game. he dont want to see any of us to get hurt... in every single relationship there'll always be ups and downs, its just depends on how you going to settle it.. he told me that he dont want to suffer from all the relationship problems and he heard a lot of sad stories about me and my ex and he is scare of everything.. he said he dont dare to try on and he decided to give up instead.. omg! i feel like killing him last night.. but my tears drop non-stop.. he told me he rather go marriage centre to look for gals and dont need to gone thru all the hassal sigh.. he rather did that then to try out with me.. i really very sad..

we talked for about nearly 3 hours.. anni thought there might be a good outcome but too bad she was so disappointed with her kor.. she keep calling me da sao here and da sao there.. but the more demand for more hope the more disappointment you'll get.. anni i'm sry i cant be your da sao.. maybe your kor will find another better gal to become your da sao ok? it's not that i dont want but its just a relationship cannot just let one party to clap the hand..there wont have any sound.. this is a reality i have no choice but to accept it.. yesterday night only i noticed that it's not just like towards alex... but the fact is i already putting more feeling inside and making it to "love" instead.. i seriously was hoping that me and him can be together but sighh sadly no is the answer..sucks!

Though it's painful but i have to move on.. i really lost faith in love, lost feeling towards guys lost everything.. i dont want to have all this stupid things to disturb me anymore.. not jason, not alex, not anson or whoever shit it is.. i DONT WANT TO LOVE ANYMORE!

writtern @8:32 PM

Hmmm
Thursday, March 12, 2009

Too long never blog, first i got no time.. second is because i need more rest.. third is i got no idea what to write.. Too many things that happened to me in the past few days.. from my job to my personal life.. hmmm when i was waiting for the bus to come back home just now, anni gave me a great shock of my life wahahah..what isit? dont ask as i am not going to tell..because things havent done yet.. and it is not confirmed! and i dont dare to give a real high hope because... no idea... i just afraid of everything.. i dont dare to accept the fact that she told me just now.. hmm take things slowly as i said lor..

Went to boiler, power house last night for a short while.. take a quick look at keith, patrick, shah, gino, anna, wan and other of my friends.. miss them so much.. miss those time when i always go there clubbing.. told anna about alex, anni and chris.. they're really great friend of mine =) told anna about everything.. me and her quite close, i treat her as my bao bei lolx.. we not les or bi.. we just love to share with each other about our dates etc.. she's a very young gal, she always told me about her love life things.. miss her so much.. saw my god sis and her bf CT.. great guy as well and we had a great night last night =)
patrick says hello to me last night while he was performing at the stage making everyone look at me.. he says i look pretty and.. just hmm speechless =) ehem i am happy :P because not every guy will say that to me especially that stupid gino!! always make fun of me.. but it was fun thou.. =) while i was there i smsed with alex and anni (brother and sister) seriously enjoying myself..

Thought wanted to go for charles and keith warehouse sales tomorrow but just couldnt find people to go with me because everyone is working and anni and her friends going jb... hmm seems like i'll be going alone myself instead :( sianz.. nvm alone for so long already, so doesnt matter to me.. suddenly felt like i'm lost.. stuck in the middle of no where again.. but why?? i couldnt find any answer also.. just now got a guy named anson approached me.. hehe he's quite ok lar, not too bad :P but anni said her brother better.. yah truly agree but.. aiya dunno lar.. i dont want to think also..


Kk i'm lazy and tired already =) will update again soon..nitex nitex..muacksss

writtern @6:10 AM

Somewhere Over the Rainbow
Saturday, March 7, 2009

That day i met jason for late lunch cum dinner. we went to have sushi dinner at bugis.. he came over to my place to find me and we went together =) had a great time everytime i met him, he's still the best to me.. (psstt, anni dont get me wrong because he really treat me very well).. though the time is short but still enjoyable.. accompany him to bras brasah there to buy his IT books, not cheap.. 2 bloody thin books cost him $40 hmm well, he just pay it thats it..

He told me that he went for a new job interview at NUS as a research assistant, hope he can get the new job.. I got no idea why i'll keep thinking about the time we had last time, those happy and sad moments.. i've learnt to treasure each of the people i've know and those who treats me well.. i do not wish to lose any of them.. kinda moody, no idea why is it so..

On my way back, it was raining with sun.. so i believe there'll be a rainbow and i am correct!! haha it's hard for me to see a rainbow in Singapore though lolx.. maybe it's due to our busy working schedules and everything.. or people just dont even bother to take up their head to look at the sky (they're just not so romantic enough wahaha).. So i was thinking since i was so called lucky to see a rainbow, is it there's a hope behind the truth? it's a very pretty rainbow.. the last time i saw a rainbow was ermmm 22yrs old? miss those days i had with my ex, my friends back in college time..


I am lonely, need someone to accompany me.. i got no idea why lately i am so emo and my tears keep dropping.. i need liquor and music to numb me.. i know this two things cant heal it but at least i am able to forget something at that period of time.. be happy and be the real me..

writtern @4:52 AM

=( -----> =) because
Friday, March 6, 2009

After a moody meeting with my bosses about the reshuffle of the whole network my mood swing for 2 days.. been crying since last wednesday night.. seems like i got no status in the branch at all, everyone hates me.. thats why they decided to transfer me out. out of so many people why me? i keep questioning myself what is going on in the whole sunday banking people.. why it's me? what have i done? what other things that makes them to make out this stupid decision.. it has been so hard for me to gain a firm and good relationship with the people inside my branch, now i have to change another new branch and have to rebuild the relationship again.. it took me at least a year to be so good with them.. i'm actually kinda disappointed with the management's decision..

My manager said 'i transfer you out, it's for your own good because you said you want to study and normal banking will be great for you'. ya rubbish, why out of so many people is me? sabrina also study but why not her? esther also the same why not her? why it's me? well, after i tell all this to my parents, sister in law, god sis and jason.. everyone asked me to take up the offer as for now we're having global crisis, just take whatever decision that the management has make.. now i'm leaving the branch already and i'm not going to bother so much about my branch anymore.. well, thats the best way.. but they cut my allowance of $185 per month lor.. and now i'm really going to be very broke liao haiz..

Yesterday went to Bishan Branch to relief as a teller, guess who i saw??? ELVIN HUANG!! omg he's damn cute and handsome!! i melt when he smiled at me =) this guy really brighten up my whole moody day.. never seeing someone who can smile at me and really brighten up my full day.. except this guy and my dog wahaha.. if i have a boyfriend, i hope he can listen to me and smiled at me like elvin smiled at me like that... seriously can brighten up my full day.. my work full of shit, stress and sadness.. i dont know how to bear it on my last day at the branch.. i think i will cry until ermmm eyes swollen? no idea, just wait for that day to come and we shall see..

Went prawning again at sin ming avenue there.. with anni and chris..we caught a lot of it and just before we wanted to leave, the whole net gone! got no idea who is the idiot who took it.. but the uncle is a real gentleman because after he found out that we cant find the ROBBER he decided to give us one whole big big big packet of prawns for us to bring back.. worth it after all.. went to anni's house to cook.. me and chris fell asleep inside her room lolx.. too tired.. drink beer and play uno cards and drink again.. i keep losing, lucky got alex help me to drink at least half hahah.. everytime i lost, he's willing to help me to drink, no idea why he did that.. anyway, thanks alex! truly appreciate it =) at first he wanted to say out something last night but he said will tell chris next time without me around.. makes me wonder a lot.. hmmm well dont care lar as i already told myself.. i cannot like him.. i'm trying myself not to like him anymore haha.. will try harder and harder :P hope i can do it lolx.. but erm hardly??

i'm tired, wanna sleep again *yawn* see ya.

writtern @10:01 PM

你没想像中爱我
Wednesday, March 4, 2009

well, people i just dont know how to read chinese lolx.. just copy and paste..


Suddenly i think that this song is very nice and very meaningful.. what is going on to me now.. everything seems so unreal to me.. am i dreaming? or i just got disturb from my sweet dreams and it turns out to become a bad dream? i woke up in a blurie place and i totally got no idea where the hell am i right now.. heaven or hell? nothing i do is correct.. everyone just blame me and seems like it's all my fault..


once again from highest point i drop until the lowest.. going to hell soon.. so many things happened to me.. eg: my working place problem- reshuffle branch ( i am being affected, thats why i am angry and sad), no bonus, pay cut, off cut everything cut.. another problem, relationship problem.. me and jason (just wondering why he still not ready, we used to be so close to each other and i know you still treat me the best) me and another new him (me, very fast to like someone and end up me suffer lolx)



me cant complained much because i am not up to the standard hahaa.. me just ugly, i wish to find back my old happy go lucky me but where isit? lost in the drain already =( gotta dig out from it already because this is not the right me lor.. anyway i'm too lazy to write already, i need someone to sit next to me and understand what i'm trying to say.. i miss my best friends

writtern @8:16 AM

Decided to give up

Well, Chris knows that who is the guy that i confess is..so ya it's alex but so what? yesterday we went prawning as i said..we played true or dare..and notty chris keep asking about those silly questions to me and making me and alex so paiseh.. haiz :( wad kiss lar, hold hand etc.. the worse is even ask me to kiss alex's ear lor! but of cuz i never do that because i do not want to make things more complicated between us..end up i choose to change 1 dare to 2 true..quite worth it :P better den doing those stupid things..

anyway, i dont see any improvement between me and alex.. and i got the feeling that me and him just wont have the chance of getting together.. i dont like to wait or i rather being loved and to love someone.. love someone is a very miserable thing.. since me and him got nothing so we just be friends.. haha i'm very flexible de lor..

yea yea chris stop making me and alex difficult lor hahah ok lar =) till i update again hahahaha

writtern @4:51 AM

Outting =)

Yesterday went full day outting with anni, chris and alex.. we went for lunch, movie, dinner and prawning.. it was a great outting that i've had, lots of joy yesterday night.. we watched marley & me. it was a really touching show when marley nearly dead.. me and anni cried!! she used up quite a lot of tissue papers hehe but me still okie, 2 pieces only :P great shoW!!!! thumbs up hahah

after that, we went to have our frog porridge at bras brasah there.. not really nice if compared to the geylang one.. geylang is really very shiok!!hahaha hope can go there to eat next time instead.. after that i got a bad news from my service officer.. haiz since monday she keep calling me and asking me about that particular company's problem and keep pushing the blame on me.. shit it's seriously non of my problem lor! it's actually a very long story and i do not wish to tell it to everyone cuz i really get pissed off by them.. it's my off days and i dont really have a great offs at all keep calling me asking me about office things. sucks!






went for prawning about 1030pm until 4plus! guess how many prawns we got! we got 10!!!! me and alex got the biggest!! wahahha it's really giant combo one and after that we BBQ it, the prawn is still jumping while we trying to BBQ them hehee..juicy and tasty..just love it yummy heheh..hope to go outting again asap..just love it =)



writtern @3:52 AM

Lost
Sunday, March 1, 2009

I am lost.. dont even know who should trust, who should not trust.. everyone looks ok to me but some they just have something that is hiding from me.. i feel like i'm a desporado~despo for something.. only anni know what i'm talking now.. because i really very angry with myself for being so stupid.. i shouldnt have done such a stupid things!

I dont know what is going on between me and the people and environment around me.. seems like just not like the "ME". arghhh sheat.. never go out eat frog porridge because that CHRIS fall down when he's trying to cross the road.. at first think it's funny but after all feel bad for him.. concern bout him but he never appreciate hmm bad him.. next time i must laugh at him as loud as i can!!!

finally it's my offs.. so i can enjoy my offs again by going out with friends like anni and rain.. now i start to miss jason already.. at first i thought i wont miss him.. but after awhile i found out he's still the one that treat me the best.. there's no secret between me and him..confess thingy, no news no nothing.. i also dont know.. not as if i trying to push it or what.. but i just cant imagine that something happened to me.haiz....

sianz..feel very bored :S want to go out!!!arghhhh

writtern @6:24 AM