Complicated
Monday, February 23, 2009
today, 24 Feb 09. i went out with my buddy, Rain for lunch at suntec.. we had chicken rice and it's bloody expensive S$4.80 for a plate of chicken rice! after that meeting honey at her house for a movie at 620pm at tiong bahru plaza. we went to watch He's just not that into you. it was a great movie with happy endings, especially jennifer aniston part. it was sooo loving and touching.. me and her end up with tears :'(
honey = anni, i just knew her for like 3 days but me and her just got endless things to talk.. we can talk from night till morning and from morning till night.. maybe we just have too many things in common. she's my friend's sister. a friend that i dont know how to explain. knew him last year oct at a pub in boat quay but only met him twice including last friday night. never really contact with him but with another friend of us. aiya dont want to talk about the past..
life is way toooo complicated.. just dont know how to settle it. whenever a girl fall in love with someone, all she wanted is just a true guy who can actually love her. be there when she need him and care for her. like what anni told me good gals always got bad boyfriend but bad gals always got good boyfriend. i totally dont understand why like this.. dont you think it's very unfair for us? whenever we girls trying our best in every single relationship but end up we got nothing except disappointment and tears and nothing. so i've decided to be a bad girl!!!!
i just confess my feeling to someone but i just feel awkward. i totally got no face to see him anymore. i decided not to go out with him cuz when i told him that he just keep on laughing and laughing. seems like i'm just playing around or what. i'm a very easy gal, i dont care who you are, as long as u treat me good and love me i'm satisfied. you got $$ or no it doesnt matter as i dont need any help from the guy as i am able to earn $$ myself. haiz..but i just dont know what is he thinking.. i swear this will be the last time i'm going to confess to someone. why everytime i like someone but that someone just couldnt make up their mind:S
once i reached 32 yrs old and i am still single, i swear i'm going to become nun and not going to fall in love anymore as i already lost faith in guys..sob sob sob..no idea why my tears will drop